January 2012
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Opportunities.
You know, I just don’t get it sometimes. When I’m doing so good and when I’ve reached my happiest, I just get pushed back down by him. All it takes is some text message from him. I’ve done everything in the post break-up cliche book. Block him, change his contact name to “Don’t answer!!!”, put away all of his things out of my site, etc. I really just...
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Dreams.
Dreams are the realms where we let our unspoken desires finally come out. We dream about the things we can’t have in real life to satisfy our yearnings and we make it seem real.
Somehow you’ve managed to always be in my dreams. Every night that I dream you’re always there…with me. Your touch, your voice, your face; it would feel just so real again. And then when I wake...
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Relapse.
All of a sudden, it just hits me again. The hurt and the anger and the bitterness. The feeling of not being worth fighting for anymore. The feeling of love and what I thought it was what we had. That feeling of brokenness. I just never been through anything like this before. This is the hardest breakup I’ve ever been in and sometimes I just feel completely lost at what to do. I know...
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Super rant.
In the end, I will be a stronger person. I don’t need your bullshit to deal with anymore. You’ve put me through so much and broke me down into so many pieces. Honestly, I made the mistake of staying. I should’ve just ended it months before, but for some reason, I still fought for what I thought was worth it, but it wasn’t. For all those nights that I cried the last couple...
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2012.
It’s 3 in the morning and I can’t sleep cause I’m in such a good mood. It hasn’t happened yet, but I have a feeling something good is about to come. Another blessing. I can feel it. It’ll be another big step for me in my life. It just makes me all happy again thinking about it.
2012, you’re my bitch now! :D
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Not the past or the future, but the present.
I’ve been thinking about what he said to me. About “living in the past” and just letting everything go. I realized it’s not even about the past anymore. It’s about what’s happening right now. It’s about how much I still love him to this very day. It’s simply that that’s so hard letting go. That feeling. I just can’t help but still care...
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