In the end, I will be a stronger person. I don’t need your bullshit to deal with anymore. You’ve put me through so much and broke me down into so many pieces. Honestly, I made the mistake of staying. I should’ve just ended it months before, but for some reason, I still fought for what I thought was worth it, but it wasn’t. For all those nights that I cried the last couple months, I should’ve drew the line. It wasn’t worth it. It’s not worth all this brokenness. I should’ve listened when they told me that I deserved so much better. My eyes are now so fucken open. I DO deserve better, and you didn’t deserve half the shit I gave you.
I’ve made the decision to cut you out completely. Fuck tryna be friends with you. You just lost the only thing you had little bit left from me, trust. All those times, I blamed myself for fucking up, but you know what, I wasn’t the only one who fucked up. You did. And you fucked up BIG time. Never thought you’d be the type of person to play me like that. I guess that just shows how much I truly knew you which I don’t. I don’t know you anymore. You’re not the same guy I met over a year ago. And you can’t fucken tell me that you’re still the same person. People change. I’ve changed & you have too. Except you changed in a way that you only thought of yourself and you were just so selfish. You were inconsiderate of my feelings. I supported you in everything. I was there for you all the times & I didn’t get SHIT from you.
Most people thought we were so in love, but truthfully, the last couple months, it faded. I didn’t feel it as much as I did in the first months and it felt like it was more forced. I didn’t even know what love even fucken felt like anymore honestly, but we still prolonged it when it should’ve ended. And whenever we’d say “I love you”, I felt like we were just saying without actually meaning it. Maybe it’s just me. I don’t fucken know. But again, it’s not like you even deserved any of that anyways. You’re not the “nice guy” you so claimed in the beginning. You’re the asshole in disguise. That whole “nice guy finish last” shit is bullshit and I fell for it like a fucken idiot.
I can’t believe I’m saying this, but I wish we hadn’t met. I wish that I hadn’t made the first move to talk to you. But you know what, God put you in my life for that short period of time for a reason. Right now though, I don’t need you in my life. So goodbye & enjoy yours.
A broken heart really does change a person. It’s a learning experience that’ll make us stronger & wiser for the next person. It also made me realize how much I’m worth and what I deserve. I deserve nothing less than the best.
